When I first read the prompt my immediate response, which is usually the best, was
I am most happy when..... travelling.
Travelling means, exploring new places, meeting new people, discovering hidden treasure, experiencing different cultures. What's not to love?
But it's not just international travel that I love. I have lived and taught in numerous places all over Queensland, and with that means that I have friends and family all over the place, so travel can sometimes mean that, waiting for me at my destination are the people I love.
However, travelling can also be a time when I feel at my loneliest . I know, I know!! How could I possibly say that, right??
Travelling alone means long stretches of time, well.... alone.
Long stretches of time with no one to talk to and nothing to do but listen to the thoughts in your own head which are often blocked by 'life noise'.
I know that there are people who think that I'm 'lucky' to be able to bugger off overseas for weeks at a time and that I should be grateful to not be tied down to responsibilities back home, and for the most part I am.
But being able to do that means there is a big part of my life missing that I have always dreamt of having and its probably when I'm travelling that I feel that hole the most.
There are also the things you miss while you're away, and no I don't mean episodes of Home and Away (although if someone could let me know how Brax gets himself outta this one I'd be grateful!!! Lol).. While I am away I know I will be gaining and learning so much, but back home birthdays will be had, milestones will be met, events will be attended that I should be at, but I know all those people will be there when I do return.
So as I lay in my sleeper on a train somewhere between Bangkok and Chiang Mai watching the sunrise feeling so very blessed and happy to be able to live this experience, there is also that hint of sadness. I know life is a juggling act and so often we all want what we haven't got, and I am so guilty of being one of those people. I am making a promise to myself to try and get out of that!
But then, as the saying goes, life wasn't meant to be easy and I will enjoy this time while it lasts!
What's the first thing you think of when you hear, "I feel happy when...."
Would love to hear your responses below!