Am writing off topic this week for Kirsty's I must confess linky as there has been something playing on my mind for a while that I wanted to write about.....
So I must confess I have some blogging regrets.....
My blog is still quite young having only started at the end of January but I already wish I had done a few things differently.
Blogging was something that has interested me for a while and if you do look back to my first post you'll see that starting the Michelle Bridges 12wbt and my friend starting her own blog was the final shove I needed to get it going. So of course, like I have a tendency to do, I jumped feet first in the deep end and didn't really really think about it.
I wanted it to be a place where I could just write and write and write and write and not really have to think about it too much, I wanted it to be a place where perhaps I could share some of my innermost thoughts and just go "blergh" on the page and if someone read it so be it. I quickly got caught up in the whole blogging world and started following, or stalking as some may say ;-) others, linking up and getting a little absorbed by it all. I started sharing my blog posts on facebook and twitter and telling anyone who would listen that I have a blog now! Some of my nearest and dearest tell me often how much they love reading my blog and how they are learning more about me and how it makes them laugh and they look forward to it and so on - all of which makes me feel so warm and fuzzy inside, don't get me wrong!
So what is my problem you may ask...???
My problem is that now I feel like I constantly have to think very carefully about what I write so as to not offend anyone close to me who may take what I write or what I say the wrong way. There are a few things that have happened of late that I have thought - "I'm so going to blog about that and see what other people think!!!!" but then when I sit down to do it I realise that for various reasons I can't. I wish I was one of those people who had the attitude "It's my blog I don't care what other people think!" and write whatever I want but I am not, I am constantly worried about upsetting others and I avoid conflict like the plague, so I just stew and vent on the inside instead.
Sometimes it's a little scary to think that I have put myself 'out
there' for everyone and anyone and wonder if I have given too much of
myself to my blog...... hmmmmm... I tell people about my blog without
really thinking of the repercussions, they now have an insight in to my
life forever, it's not like on facebook where you can "unfriend" or
"defriend" (never quite sure which one it is) or block someone, once someone starts reading your blog they
can have access to that forever, unless of course I decide to cease
writing (which is not something I am going to do!)
So perhaps if I could turn back the clock I would make my blog anonymous and not share it with all those in my 'real' world', that way I could write what I like when I like and have no regrets or give it a second thought!
How do you overcome these things on your blog? Did you decide to keep your blog anonymous and why did you decide to do that?
What do you have to confess this week? Head over to My Home Truths to get it off your shoulders!