to discuss fear

This week I must confess is being hosted by Ms Mystery Case and she has asked us to confess our fears.

I am taking a slightly different take on this and not just confessing my fears....

I am working my way through Kelly Exeter's book...Your Best Year Yet.. I am taking my time and really trying to absorb and fully take in Kelly's advice.

So Chapter 5 is called A different way of facing your fears. Kelly starts the chapter by asking What would you do if you weren't scared? which got me thinking about this week's confession prompt.

Sure I have my fears (snakes, spiders, mice, living the rest of my life alone being some of them) but what would I do if I had no fear!?

(It has literally taken me about 15 minutes to write this after typing that question...I fear of putting it out there, putting it in writing, seeing it on the screen, saying it out loud)....

If I had no fear, I would leave my job......

This is something I have been thinking about for a while, something that I know I have to do and something that I am working towards doing but if I really had no fear I would have done it a while ago, I would do it now. I have been working in this profession for about 14 years, it's all I've known...it's all I've ever really done, it's safe, it's secure, it's permanent..the holidays are great and the pay is pretty good as well. It's all of these reasons that have kept me doing it all this time. Another reason I have not been able to walk away is because I have no idea what else I would do.

But all these reasons are not reasons to stay.

In the chapter Kelly says...

A lot of the time, our fears can be boiled down to

what other people might think about us.

 I think this is so true...I fear that walking away somehow makes me a failure, that I will let people who rely on me down, that people will be disappointed in me/with me, that people will try (and possibly succeed) and talk me out of it, that people will think that I am crazy/stupid/irresponsible/reckless/and other things that really shouldn't matter to me!

So, step by step, bit by bit, one day at a time I am going to activate my wobbly courage and work towards leaving my job and having My Best Year Yet!

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Linking up with Ms Mystery Case for I Must Confess..

Your turn...What would you do if you weren't scared??

(PS...I will be working on a full review of Kelly's book shortly! Standby for that one!!)