to move on..

I can always rely on the I Must Confess prompt to get me thinking and lately they have had me catapolting back into the past...

I Must Confess...the past is not somewhere I always like to look, somethings are best left in the past and unspoken of again.

This week the link up is being hosted by the amazing Emma at Five Degrees of Chaos with the prompt...

'If I could go back to one single moment in my life, it would be...',

 again there are lots of moments that I could write about, like that bad haircut, saying yes to that bad date, not getting off that bus, filling out that transfer application, buying that return ticket...but then I remembered a previous confession that kind of links to this one. 

A while back we confessed our biggest regrets and while I talked myself out of it being an actual regret the more I think about it the more I think that if I could go back and change it the more I think I would. 

Making all the choices I have made along the way have gotten me to where I am today and there's parts of me that can't possibly regret that as that would be saying all the friends and all the experiences were a regret and that cannot possibly be true.

I've had a lot of conversations lately about my work with friends who constantly tell me they love their job.... I have never said that, never thought that and perhaps if I could go back to one single moment in my life, it would be to when I chose my university preferences, or maybe it would be to not actually accepting that offer of a teaching degree. Perhaps I would have taken more time to find out what I love and what I am passionate about.

Each decision we make has flow on affects, some good, some bad. That decision I made way back then has lead to some of the best and some of the worst experiences of my life so it's hard to imagine how different things would be for me if I made a different decision back then but one thing is for sure...it would be different.

But as I said earlier and in my previous post on this topic, there is no point in wondering about the 'what if's' because I did, and here I am and all I can do now is continue to move forward and see where my current decisions and plans take me!

Linking up with Emma from Five Degrees of Chaos for I Must Confess and Alicia from One Mother Hen for Open Slather.

to confess my biggest regret...

This week's prompt over at My Home Truths is 'your biggest regret'... earlier this year I blogged about my blogging regrets, but today's regret is bigger and far more reaching than just in my blogging world.

I do try and live my life with a 'no regrets' attitude, and I truly love this quote....

 

and I do believe it, I do believe that I have made all my life choices based on what was best for me at the time...

I think anyone saying that they have no regrets is unrealistic...we ALL have something we regret; that hair cut/colour, that last drink, buying that top we didn't need, that speeding fine, eating that last slice of pizza when you were already full, not saying the one thing we wanted to say to that person before they walked out the door, what we did say to that one person before they walked out the door....

But my biggest life regret is one that I am only just starting to realise... I now work in a job where I work with High School students and part of the role is career advice and counselling. I help students through working out the best career for them, help them in picking the subjects that are going to get them to where they want to be and then help them with their choices beyond year 12, including university applications, applications for other colleges, workforce etc etc... when the students come and see me and talk to me about their futures and their dreams and their goals I get this amazing sense of excitement. They probably think that I have lost the plot as I get so excited and start googling madly and making phone calls on their behalf to make sure they get all the information that they need.

So how, you may ask, is this linked to my biggest regret..... I wish I had taken some more time deciding what I wanted to do with my life. I know that it's never too late and all of that but I think my biggest regret is not taking a gap year between school and uni and working out who I really am and what I really wanted out of life and just 'living' for a while! Even I find this a bit bizarre for me to say because it's not necessarily something I advise my students and again looking back, up until now, it's not something that I had thought of, but I do wonder where I would be now if I had of. I wish I had of travelled overseas perhaps as a Nanny or something similar. I have often thought about selling up and moving overseas even now as an adult, but something always stops me, mostly thinking about what I would miss while I was gone, but it never stops me thinking.....

 

 I suppose one of the values of hindsight is that I know the answer to the question...

"What if I did take a gap year and go overseas?"

The main answer to that is I wouldn't have all the friends in my life that I have now.... All my closest friends are friends that I have met at either University or at Schools that I have taught at. Therefore if I had of taken that gap year, if I had of lived overseas for a year, then these girls would not be in my life right now. If I had of taken that year off I would have a different life story so far and I am sure it would be a great one, but given that I can not imagine my life without my girls (you know who you are) I suppose, when all is said and done, I really can't regret the decision I made for it has given me exactly what I wanted...The BEST best friends a girl could ask for and how could I possibly regret that!!! xo

What are your biggest regrets???

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