Which actor would you like to be ” you” in the movie of your life –
what would you call it?
So naturally this got me thinking about my life and struggling to come up with a person to play me, let alone a title.. "Would anyone even want to watch a movie of my life!?"
Tonight (Sunday night - my usual 'blogging night') I was catching up on some blog reading and suddenly it dawned on me.....
I must confess.... I don't know where I belong...
The blogger was talking about being a local in their small town and I realised, I am not a 'local' anywhere. I was born in a small town in Central QLD, leaving there when I was 9 months old and moving to a sheep farm between Inglewood and Stanthorpe on the Darling Downs. I went off to boarding school for all of my High School years.
Once I finished High School I moved straight to Toowoomba for University, 4 years later I was a teacher and took my first posting in Normanton in the Gulf of Carpentaria. From then until now, 13 years later, I have pretty much transferred with work every 3 years...
Around the time I moved to Normanton, my folks left the farm. It was a bizarre feeling. I felt like I hadn't lived on the farm for so long but it was still 'home'..
I have moved back to Toowomba twice in the last 13 years but I am not sure this is 'home' either. I certainly don't consider myself a local. It's not that it's not a nice town, but I suppose it's a safe town for me. It's like my little security blanket. I know it here, I have friends here, I have family here, but I am not sure here is where I want to be forever. I don't know why, can't put a reason on it, but just can't help but wonder if there isn't something more...
I must confess I have never really felt settled anywhere, I feel like I am always looking for the next place to move to, the next job, the next school... hoping that in the next town things will be different, work will be better, I will meet someone...
Each of the places I have lived has given me some wonderful adventures, some wonderful memories, some not so wonderful memories and everything in between. Some of my best and closest friends are from these places and for that reason they will all hold a special place in my heart, but none of them made me feel the burning desire to stay become a local. There is that old saying Home is where the heart is.. well that doesn't make things any easier as I feel like I have left a little piece of my heart in every place that I have lived.
I suppose I probably have never really given myself enough time in each of these places, but looking back the decision to leave each time seemed right at the time. So I just continue to live where I live and do what I do, for the most part life goes by as if on auto pilot, with the mind constantly wondering 'what is next?'.... When people would ask me where I wanted to live, where I saw myself living in 5 years time, I would joke and say "wherever my husband is!" but to be honest I am really not sure.
I must confess.... I don't know where I belong...
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(The teacher in me really really wishes those were capital I's!)
Once I finished High School I moved straight to Toowoomba for University, 4 years later I was a teacher and took my first posting in Normanton in the Gulf of Carpentaria. From then until now, 13 years later, I have pretty much transferred with work every 3 years...
Around the time I moved to Normanton, my folks left the farm. It was a bizarre feeling. I felt like I hadn't lived on the farm for so long but it was still 'home'..
I have moved back to Toowomba twice in the last 13 years but I am not sure this is 'home' either. I certainly don't consider myself a local. It's not that it's not a nice town, but I suppose it's a safe town for me. It's like my little security blanket. I know it here, I have friends here, I have family here, but I am not sure here is where I want to be forever. I don't know why, can't put a reason on it, but just can't help but wonder if there isn't something more...
I must confess I have never really felt settled anywhere, I feel like I am always looking for the next place to move to, the next job, the next school... hoping that in the next town things will be different, work will be better, I will meet someone...
Each of the places I have lived has given me some wonderful adventures, some wonderful memories, some not so wonderful memories and everything in between. Some of my best and closest friends are from these places and for that reason they will all hold a special place in my heart, but none of them made me feel the burning desire to stay become a local. There is that old saying Home is where the heart is.. well that doesn't make things any easier as I feel like I have left a little piece of my heart in every place that I have lived.
I suppose I probably have never really given myself enough time in each of these places, but looking back the decision to leave each time seemed right at the time. So I just continue to live where I live and do what I do, for the most part life goes by as if on auto pilot, with the mind constantly wondering 'what is next?'.... When people would ask me where I wanted to live, where I saw myself living in 5 years time, I would joke and say "wherever my husband is!" but to be honest I am really not sure.
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So tomorrow is another day and I'll get up and do what I do every day
and wait for inspiration to hit and until it does I will (hopefully) have some more adventures.
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A map of QLD for those not sure where these places are that I speak of...
The stars obviously indicating some of the places I have lived..
How about you? Do you feel like you are where you belong? Are you a 'local'?
